Nut-Gate: The Aftermath

July 10th, 2018

Shanann posts of Facebook

5:22pm Shanann calls Chris for 8 minutes

7:32pm Shanann texts Chris

July 11, 2018

5:20am Shanann calls Chris for 7 minutes

Shanann posts on Facebook

4:20pm Shanann calls Chris for 13 minutes

July 12, 2018

4:46am Shanann makes two unanswered calls to Chris

5:16am Chris calls Shanann for 10 minutes

10:53am Shanann & Chris receive 'Summons to appear in court' regarding unpaid HOA dues; Case #C622018C34877

July 13, 2018

5:25am Chris calls Shanann for 1 minute

5:32am Chris calls Shanann for 4 minutes

4:21pm Chris calls Shanann for 8 minutes

4:35pm Chris calls Shanann for 12 minutes

Shanann posts of Facebook

July 14, 2018

12:46-1:08pm Shanann makes 4 unanswered calls to Chris

1:17pm Shanann calls Chris and they talk for 1 minute 30 seconds

2:36-3:27pm Shanann makes unanswered calls to Chris

4:26-5:23pm Shanann makes 4 unanswered calls to Chris

5:23pm Chris calls Shanann and they talk for 10 minutes

Shanann posts on Facebook

July 15, 2018

Shanann posts of Facebook

7:16am Chris calls Shanann and they talk for 8 mins

11:37am Shanann calls Chris and they talk for 5 minutes

3:42pm Shanann texts Cassie

4:19pm Shanann calls Chris for 3 minutes

July 16, 2018

5:33am Shanann calls Chris and they talk for 3 minutes

3:45-4:24pm Shanann and Chris exchange several calls, talking for a total of 33 minutes

July 17, 2018

5:22am Shanann calls Chris for 5 min, 30 seconds

July 18, 2018

5:26am Shanann calls Chris for 5 min, 30 seconds

5:34am Chris calls Shanann or 4 minutes

7:04am Shanann texts Cassie

July 19, 2018

5:34am Chris calls Shanann for 10 minutes

8:34am Shanann posts in an Allergy Support Group

July 21, 2018

7:43am Shanann calls Chris for 20 minutes
1:58pm Chris texts Shanann

Shanann posts on Facebook

July 22, 2018

7:52am Chris calls Shanann for 12 minutes

8:10am Shanann calls Chris for 14 minutes

3:25pm Shanann calls Chris for 18 minutes

3:50pm Shanann calls Chris for 21 minutes

July 23, 2018

5:40am Shanann calls Chris for 2 minutes

5:36pm Shanann calls Chris and they talk for 9 minutes

July 24, 2018

5:54am Chris calls Shanann for 5 minutes

3:49pm Shanann calls Chris for 10 minutes

5:30pm Shanann texts Chris

5:36pm Shanann calls Chris for 9 minutes

6:02pm Shanann texts Chris

8:10pm Shanann calls Chris for 17 minutes

July 25, 2018

5:36am Chris makes unanswered call to Shanann

5:38am Shanann calls Chris for 11 minutes

4:35pm Shanann calls Chris for 23 minutes

July 26, 2018

Shanann posts on Facebook

5:40am Chris makes unanswered call to Shanann

5:43am Shanann calls Chris for 5 minutes

11:28am Shanann calls Chriss for 6 minutes

4:40pm Shanann calls Chris for 18 minutes

6:39pm Chris calls Shanann for 5 minutes

July 27, 2018

4:44pm Shanann calls Chris for 11 minutes

7:46pm Shanann calls Chris for 2 minutes

7:50pm Shanann calls Chris for 1 minutes

July 28, 2018

1:44pm Shanann makes unanswered call to Chris

1:54pm Chris makes unanswered call to Shanann

1:57pm Chris makes unanswered call to Shanann

July 29, 2018

10:55am Chris texts Shanann

12:36-2:21pm Shanann makes 4 unanswered calls to Chris

2:25pm Chris calls Shanann for 2 minutes

5:30pm Shanann makes unanswered call to Chris

5:49pm Shanann texts Chris

7:24pm Chris calls Shanann for 14 minutes

7:39pm Shanann texts Chris

7:49pm Chris texts Shanann

July 30, 2018

5:39am Chris calls Shanann for 6 minutes

8:11am Shanann texts Chris

9:18am Shanann texts Chris

4:17pm Shanann calls Chris for 19 minutes

5:39pm Shanann texts Chris

7:57pm Chris texts Shanann

8:03pm Shanann calls Chris

July 31, 2018

3:22am Chris texts Shanann

4:46am Chris texts Shanann

4:47am Shanann calls Chris for 2 minutes

4:50am Shanann texts Chris

4:53am Shanann texts Chris

7:57am Chris texts Shanann

10:18am Chris texts Shanann

2:48pm Shanann posts on Facebook

9:49pm Shanann texts Chris

August 1, 2018

Shanann texts Cassie

Chris & Shanann's August bills due:

Automobile insurance: $700.00
Primrose weekly fees: $600.00
Mortgage $2,700 + 3 months past due
Combined credit cards: $ unknown amount
HOA: $45.00 + 6 months past due

August 2, 2018

6:40am Shanann texts Cassie, “Text Stef please” Cassie replies, “I have told her already and she went and posted on group. Thought maybe there would end that! She then messages me again privately. She doesn’t listen!! And se spend a lot of products already given it to people that she haven’t put on it phone. I’m trying with her but she is doing her own thing…at least she is trying and putting herself out here that’s why I take the time lol”

11:21am Shanann texts Cassie, “I think Chris is hangry” Cassie replies, “Why” Shanann says, “He’s been so closed off and only focus on his food. Kissed me once since he’s been here. That was at airport I kissed him. No grabbing my ass, hug or anything. I want to cry” Cassie replies, “Awwwww tell him how you feel” Shanann tells Cassie, “I did. He said nothings wrong” Cassie says, “Maybe is BURN” Shanann replies, “? 5 weeks away from me and not touching me. Doesn’t make me feel good. He got me pregnant. I just want to cry.” Cassie says, “I’m totally shut down sexually…the past few months. I’m nonsexual at all. Now maybe I’m starting to think is that maybe he is experiencing the same think. Nothing is wrong with us…we actually doing better than ever. Oh mama he loves you a lot!” Shanann says, “This isn’t cool” Cassie replies, “No, i feel bad for DJ but I don’t know what’s wrong with me now I’m wondering i that has anything to do with it. Wonder if anyone is experiencing the same thing. Could you leave the kids with family and maybe stay alone a night together before you guys head out again?” Shanann says, “No but we are sleeping alone and nothing. Like fuck. I think he’s hangry” Cassie says, “BTW, DJ is nonsexual too. But he’s eating when he is hungry?” Shanann says, “I don’t like it at all. He wanted this baby. That means I gain weight. I’m not feeling wanted.” Cassie replies, “Yeah he definitely needs to make an effort and take care of you…specially now.”

2:56pm Cassie texts Shanann, “Addy haven’t responded to my text normal she says she got it may need back up. Call start at 9pm. Oh never mind. She just answered uufff” Shanann says, “I just can’t…kids in bed. I took a night shower (means I want sex and he knows it) he’s over here doing fucking push-up challenge instead of discussing anything or fucking me. I’m over here crying in silence” Cassie tells Shanann, “Gurl stop him and tell him don’t cry in silence that not good for your baby” Shanann replies, “No, if his first thing he wants to do is work out then touch me, I’m done. I’m listening to your call” Cassie tells Shanann, “I love you” Shanann replies, “Love you” Cassie tells Shanann, “Mama you are going through a lot right now” Shanann says, “I can’t do this. Not 3 alone. Why is he like this. He’s never been like this. 5.5 ducking weeks no sex. Unless he was getting it somewhere else.” Cassie asks, “He has no girl, don’t think like that” Shanann asks, “Why else isn’t he ducking me” Cassie asks Shanann, “Did you ask him?” Shanann replies, “Should I have to? Are you fucking kidding me.” Cassie says, “Yes, because it’s important to you. DJ had to ask me.” Shanann says, “Before I left, he said be ready when I get there you won’t be able to walk.” Cassie asks, “Do you think is because where you guys are at?” Shanann says, “We’re alone in a beach house.” Cassie says, “Oh. You really need to have heart to heart convo.” Shanann says, “I did earlier.” Cassie asks, “About why he won’t having sex with you?” Shanann says, “I was trying to wait till kids went to bed to talk to him. And he was being impatient with kids for no reason, and I flipped. I said, you know since you’ve been here you haven’t touched me, I kissed you at airport and that’s it since then. The kids are not coming to you because you have been on edge since you got here (You’re normally goofy and playful). We’ve been separated for 5 weeks, and I just want to hold you. I told him I’m happy for his new lifestyle but when he pays more attention to labels since he’s been here than us, I have a problem with it.” Cassie adds, “Yeah, no. that’s not ok…DJ and i may not be as sexually active but we still lovie dovie with each other. And what you mean labels?” Shanann says, “Lunch meat labels and everything I bought.” Cassie asks, “WTF like not a s healthy as he been eating? He needs to chill out…he is on vacation with his family!” Shanann says, “I’m gonna try and sleep I’m freezing and cramping.” Cassie replies, “I’m sorry…year are in my thoughts. Things will be ok, he loves you very much.” Shanann tells Cassie, “Love you. Thanks for listening to me.” Cassies says, “Always here for you” Shanann replies, “Ditto.”

August 3, 2018

1:39am Shanann texts Cassie, “I don’t think it’s burn. We had tons of sex before I left. I didn’t sleep much last night.”

3:45am Cassie texts Shanann, “Morning mama…you know, I was thinking. Every time DJ has been gone when he comes back it takes him a little bit to adjust to family. Could it be that?” Shanann replies, “He said today when I confronted him, it’s his dad.”

7:02am Cassie texts Shanann, “What about his dad…he sick?” Shanann explains, “He looks up to his dad, his dad is his hero and he doesn’t understand why his dad deleted the whole family and is being like this. He’s pissed at his mom, but he doesn’t get why his dad is siding with his mom when she admitted to what she said. Which put CeCe at risk. This is no excuse to shut me and the kids out. You talk to me, your wife especially after i expressed how i felt yesterday.” Cassie agrees, “That is true…it is no excuse! I’m glad he at least opened up” Shanann tells Cassie, “I begged him to talk to me or I can’t live like this.” Cassie tells her, “I hope things get better soon” Shanann agrees, “Me too. I can’t feel like this.” Cassie replies, “No, and you shouldn’t specially with a baby.” Shanann adds, “I need to feel wanted and all that goes with it. Or I am better off alone.” Cassie tells her, “Don’t give up too quickly, all relationships goes with ups and down.” Shanann says, “Yes, but I’m pregnant/fat and hormonal” Cassie advises her, “Yes, that’s why you shouldn’t make decisions like that. Give it time…you are strong! He loves you and the girls…he is going through things too. OMG Mabel. Really what’s her name?? Sam. I guess she never saved the numbers.” Shanann tells her, “Help Mabel save the leaders numbers. And tell her if sone says 3 she has to call at 3” Cassie says, “I have a couple of times” Shanann replies, “Send her the customer number and have her friend listen to it please.” Cassie replies, “I did.”

12:00pm Shanann texts Cassie, “Need your honesty. You know everything that happened with Chris’ mom right? She went behind my back and let Bella have or do when I said no, though her to keep secrets from me, risked Celeste’s life, didn’t come to her birthday or wish her a happy birth on phone or texts. Blocked and deleted us all on FB etc. Chris makes one phone call to his dad today in over 4 weeks and he wants them to see the kids tomorrow! I told him over my dead body. They do not get to disrespect me and him and his kids and get rewarded. It took me over a week to get Bella to change her attitude with me. Cindy had her disrespecting me. His dad said, yes I want to see the kids. (Even though he blocked us, hasn’t shared any memories of our kids on FB, hasn’t attempted to make contact or anything) Am I wrong? I feel I shouldn’t reward them for their horrible behavior and putting both my kids at risk for their life!” Cassie advises her, “I know this is very difficult…Chris is also the dad and its family. I would feel the same as you, but I also know I would need to talk to DJ and listen to his wants and needs. At the end of the day, you are all family, and you need to make the best decision for you and your family. What we teach our children in situations like this they grow up to handle things the same way. They probably won’t see them again in a very long time…maybe his father is just trying to stay on the grace of wife and it’s doing what she wants but doesn’t always mean that’s what he desires. It’s a hard situation!!” Shanann stays firm, “I just don’t feel I should reward them for their horrible actions. It’s not fair to my kids. I feel they need to earn my kids trust back.” Cassie says, “I hear ya and see your point.” Shanann adds, “I don’t want my kids to wonder why they are in our life one minute out the next. And his mom obviously has no respect for Celeste’s life.” Cassie says, “They need to earn your trust back…is it just his dad wanting to see them or mom too?” Shanann tells her, “No both. It’s not cool They didn’t show up for her birthday or the last 4 weeks we’ve been here, and I refuse to let my kids be alone with them. He’s a grown man and can stick up to his wife. These are their grandkids. They already show favoritism. They both have tattoos for other grandkids but not Chris’. Pictures all over the house of other kids but not ours” Cassie agrees with Shanann, “True. What is Chris saying?” Shanann explains, “They can’t respect my kids they don’t deserve to see them. Chris is so submissive and gives in so easy. IT’s like he brushed this off. What if Celeste died. 30 mins to nearest hospital (without traffic) emp not 100% what would she say then. I’m sorry. That’s my ducking kid. My kid. he’s not saying anything. Putting it on me.” Cassie tells Shanann, “Then if he’s putting it on you, then you make the decision and say no.” Shanann replies, “He’s like well, my dad still wants to see the kids…even thought he blocked us on FB and stopped sharing kids memories. Oh, I did but wanted to make sure I’m not being over sensitive. Bella’s old enough to understand when people are in one minute and out the next.” Cassie says, “They really don’t deserve it.” Shanann added, “I refused their packages at the house. I had Nicki write return to sender. I don’t want gifts. I want them to love and protect my kids like I do. I want Chris to stick up for his damn kids.” Cassie replies, “The only way I would consider it would be that if was super important and he was pushing hard.” Shanann tells Cassie, “He’s so worried about not talking to them he’s going to lose us.” Cassie tells Shanann, “He needs to grow some then. I’m sorry that’s not my place to say but come on.” Shanann further adds, “His dad is just as guilty. He’s his own person. He hit the block button not me. Girl, I know, I agree. Though he would when it comes to his kids. My pyramid consists of my husband, my kids, then my parents. My kids come before my parents. I have to protect them from the world. I shouldn’t have to protect them from family.” Cassie agrees with Shanann, “That’s the way it should be. It’s so sad that it has come to this and to put you in this stress in your condition.” Shanann replies, “I feel if they wanted to see them, they could have made effort the last 4 weeks.” Cassie says, “They seem never to be their priority. This time no excuses, you are in their area.” Shanann agrees, “Exactly. Another night in silence.”

2:50pm Cassie texts Shanann, “I’m sorry mama. That’s not good…this is definitely affecting him bad. He needs to speak up…what does he want?” Shanann tells Cassie, “I don’t know. I just asked him if this is going to be our life. I can’t and won’t take this! He hasn’t responded!” Casse says, “That’s hard.” Shanann tells Cassie, “I don’t want to have this baby.” Cassie replies, “What??!!” Shanann says, “I can’t do this alone with 3 kids. I’m not happy.” Cassie reassures Shanann, “The baby was mad with love and what’s happening it’s temporary. You guys love each other, you guys will be able to overcome this.” Shanann tells Cassie, “I asked again Bc he ignored me and said no. I can’t do this.” Cassie tells Shanann, “Yes you can. You are strong…and together you guys will figure things out.” Shanann adds, “He hasn’t talked to me, only responded to my questions today. I will not back down from protecting my kids.” Cassie replies, “I know you won’t. But take time…this is new…he loves you. I know he does. Things are just bad right now.” Shanann further adds, “He claims there’s nothing wrong with us and this has nothing to do with us. But he’s never, EVER shut me out like this. Ever. I’m sleeping on couch.” Cassie tells Shanann, “Oh mama, maybe in his mind it’s not. It’s something he’s dealing with.”

6:57pm Cassie texts Shanann, “Did you get all of my messages? LOL” Shanann replies, “Yes. Sorry it’s been a rough day. Forgot to respond.” Cassie asks, “Why rough honey? You ok?” Shanann asks Cassie, “What if it’s solely on yor mom’s name?” Cassie replies, “She doesn’t make enough. We want to aim to not be in your home any longer than a month. We don’t want to put you guys out. Like I said, unless you want a different home, and we will take yours. Now, why was your day rough girl?” Shanann says, “Never put us out. Can’t explain on text. And not a good time.” Cassie tells Shanann, “Ok honey. Call me whenever you can. I love you and smile” Shanann replies, “Love you more. Thank you.”

7:19pm Shanann texts Addy, “How’s everything going?” Addy replies, “Ok. How about you?” Shanann says, “Could be better. Chris is bother by his family’s shit that I’m paying for it. I need a stiff drink.”

10:42pm Shanann texts Cassie, “It got ugly last night. Truth came out. You up?”

August 4, 2018

3:36am Shanann texts Chris, “Truth came out last night. I didn’t create no dagger between you and your dad. That was done by your mom and your dad. And i won’t change a thing. My daughter’s life is way more important. And you better believe i wanted to say a whole lot more than I did but I was being the bigger person and protecting Bella. I didn’t tell your dad not to come to party. I didn’t tell him not to text or call your daughter on her birthday. I didn’t tell him to start acting like he only has two grandkids instead of 4. I didn’t block your family on FB, he did. Myself and your kids have nothing to say to them. They do. They owe your kids their life. Your parents’ home isn’t a save zone. Your mom isn’t safe! You can let them tell you want you want, but I didn’t tell anyone to stop loving your kids or stop acting like it. He did that, not me. You can believe I created this dagger, but I didn’t do that. I stood up for our kids, I advocated and protected our children. I don’t ever want to hear, I’m sorry I killed your kid Bc I was stupid. That would kill me. These kids are my world and I have to protect them from the evil of the world. I shouldn’t have to protect them from evil family. Our kids deserve the same love and attention the other kids get. Nothing less. I’m not accepting I’m sorry from your mom. Bc she doesn’t mean it and she knew what she was doing. I made it very clear not to eat it around Celeste Bc she doesn’t understand way before that happened. She’s evil and willing to risk your daughter’s life just to get under my skin. You and your dad are not different, if you are ok with her behavior. There’s nothing wrong with me and I’m not crazy. I just love my kids wasy too much. From the day I left you never said you I missed you before I said it. Something changed when I left. you may be happier alone and that’s fine. You can be alone! This pregnancy you have failed to acknowledge it or to acknowledge how I’m feeling. The first trimester is the scariest and most dangerous, yet we can lose this baby at any point until delivery. I’m not going to be treated this way for having the balls to protect our family and kids. I should get a gold ducking medal for handling it the way I did. Bc I had a lot of choice words I wanted to say to her and your dad for his stupidity. No on stands up to your mom and your dad for that. He’s just as guilty by not doing anything.. I have nothing to do with him, stop sharing memories of his grandkids. What does that have to do with me. They are fucking with our kids’ feelings and that I’m not ok with. I am their mother and I will protect them. I have enough to worry about with the world out there. I’m not going to worry about family. I will just remove it.”

3:58am Shanann texts Cassie, “What I texted him this a.m.” Shanann sends Cassie screen shots of her text to Chris

5:13am Shanann texts Chris, “I also don’t control what you do. If you want to go hang out with your parents today, by all means do so, but without us. Don’t put it on me why you can’t go. You are your own person.”

7:26am Chris texts Shanann, “These kids mean the world to me and always will. Yes, my mom truly screwed up in a huge way, more than a huge way. I don’t know what I wouldn’t done if something happened to CeCe. These kiddos are the light of my life and seeing their sweet, incredible smiles and playfulness makes me smile every day. I’m sorry for the way I’ve been acting, it’s just been in my head, and I haven’t been right at all.”

7:31am Shanann texts Chris, “Yes, that created this dagger between you and your dad and that wasn’t me. That was them. I protected our daughter from their stupidity. They created that and you belong with them thinking otherwise. I didn’t tell your dad to remove himself from the kid’s life…I did and do not deserve to be treated the way you have. I defended our daughter.”

7:48am Chris texts Shanann, “Yes you protected our daughter and I thank you for that a million time a million. I don’t think they are innocent in any of this. They do want to be in the kids’ life and I’m not sure they even know how to right now. They should’ve swallowed whatever they needed to and came to CeCe’s birthday party and called her and shouldn’t have blocked all social media contact with the. I don’t care what they do with us, just as long as they love and respect the kids. I’m not used to not having a relationship with my dad. I should’ve just called him before it got to this point where it got in my head. I didn’t and that’s my fault.”

7:48am Addy texts Shanann, “Why are u paying for it?” Shanann replies, “Long story to text.”

8:03am Shanann texts Chris, “Why should you beg to be in their life. They pick up phone and apologize for starters. They show up to her birthday, especially since we were an hour away. They did this, they make the effort. You blame me for this so-called dagger between you and him. Fuck that. you are just like them. Believe what he tells you and move back home where you weren’t appreciated when I met you. No one ever protected you from your mom and someone should have before me. I’m done being the bad guy in all this. Especially when I had more balls to stand up for you a long time ago with them. My bad for thinking you deserved better. Not my kids, not in the pic and I’m done.”

8:25am Cassie texts Shanann, “Wow mama…well said. What’d he say? Sorry I passed out last night.” Shanann tells Cassie, “He’s feeling like shit.” She sends Cassie screen shots of Chris’ texts. Shanann then adds, “I said all that last night in person, and he said, I didn’t think of it that way.” Cassie tells Shanann, “I am glad you guys were able to lay it all out. You guys have a beautiful family and Chris loves you so much and the girls.” Shanann replies, “I slept on the couch. I’m tired of him not having balls to stand up to his family. He’s so worried of what his dad thinks if they don’t talk then to protect us. I’m not cool with that. Stand up to them for once and maybe they will grow up.” Cassie tells Shanann, “Yeah, it seems to be consuming him…he needs to detach and do what right. I get it, it’s hard but he has his own family to care and protect no matter what.” Shanann replies, “This week we started dating 8 years ago. They conintued ruin everyting special to me and I’m sick of it. He allos it. Our proposal, engagement party, wedding, anniversary, births, etc. Exactly”

11:53am Shanann texts Chris, “While it’s on my mind…if I’m in the wrong that’s one thing, but I’m not here and you not standing up for us and the girls is not cool. You just make it so they feel they did no wrong and brush it under the rug. i will never trust your parents alone with our kids. EVER! This is the week we started dating 8 years ago. They ruin everything special. I won’t forgive you, or them, for that. I’m tired of it. I’m the one that takes care of you not them. You making me feel like complete shit these past several weeks, especially this week, I’m not ok with and I won’t change my ways when it comes to our kids. And I always defended you. Always.”

11:56am Shanann texts Chris, “I’m not asking you to choose who to be with. I shouldn’t have to ask you to choose right from wrong. You are not happy, then you know where to go…Worst summer ever.”

2:50pm Shanann texts Cassie, “I’m seriously done. I’m not living in secret or hiding. I also don’t want to live where he feels torn. Today has been in silence but kids have filled the void. (She sends Cassie photos of the girls on rides) Cassie replies, “Oh mama…things will get better. She (celeste) is so stinking cute! Because you guys are strong and will work things out!” Shanann says, “I won’t live in lies.” Cassie tells her, “You don’t have to…this will get better. This is affecting the both of you in different ways…maybe after you guys go home maybe helpful to have some couple’s therapy.” Shanann tells Cassie, “Can’t afford that.” Cassie stresses, “But a marriage and love like yours should not end just by this…this is too soon to let this get destroyed.” Shanann says, “But this isn’t the first time with his family” Cassie says, “You guys gotta fight for your own family…mama don’t give up. He’s a good man and a good father and you know he loves you to pieces.” Shanann replies, “I can’t fight alone. I’ve been fighting for 8 years. This started 8 years ago when we started dating. His mom and sister have been after destroying us since.” Cassie says, “Don’t let them win.” Shanann replies, “This is the worst it’s gotten and I can’t do this. I can’t fight my own husband. HE’s completely ok with this.” Cassie tells Shanann, “Never give up and never surrender!!!” Shanann says, “I don’t have it in me. These past 6 weeks have been hell.” Cassie replies, “You will be surprised what people can do. You guys are going back to Colorado, things will calm down mama. Give it time.” Shanann says, “I’m 14 weeks pregnant and he hasn’t once touched my belly or asked how my pregnancy is going. That adds to this. He wanted this pregnancy.” Cassie asks Shanann, “Have you talked to his best friend?” Shanann says, “They don’t talk.” Cassie asks, “Why?” Shanann tells her, “Chris doesn’t talk to people.” Cassie replies, “WTF something is not ok” Shanann tells her, “He’s not a great friend. He’s always quiet.” Cassie says, “Oh” Shanann continues, “I know I’m wrong for this. But he’s deleting his text conversations to his dad. Only reason you delete is if you have something to hide.” Cassie says, “Hmmm did you confront him?” Shanann replies, “No Bc I don’t want him to know I looked.” Cassie agrees, “Yeah, good point.” Shanann asks, “What do I say to him? I mean, I think I said enough” Cassie says, “I don’t know, it’s just a hard situation all around. He needs to wake up before he losses you guys.” Shanann tells her, “He’s been outside for 30 mins instead of coming to be to talk to me. If kids were not around there’s no talking.” Cassie asks, “What is he doing?” Shanann says, “On phone” Cassie asks her, “Dad?” Shanann replies, “Not me. I miss you.” Cassie says, “Miss you too gurl…I can wait see you!!! Give you a big hug”

6:52pm Shanann texts Cassie, “Been in bed alone for two hours. My mom is with us tonight. So have no idea where he is. I don’t want him staying with us in Colorado. I canceled ultrasound where we find gender out. I don’t do well with shutting me out. I don’t do well with no communication.” Casse replies, OMG mama. He really needs to talk and open up” Shanann replies, “He’s not excited about pregnancy. I’m losing excitement. This family shit just happened. He was excited when I found out and that died from there. What I want to say to him at this point is not nice.” Cassie says, “I’m so sorry. So hard specially you being pregnant…I want to scream at him. I can’t even imagine what you want.” Shanann tells her, “He didn’t even say good night to me. Fucking ass hole.” Cassie says, “I just don’t understand this big change in him.” Shanann replies, “Me either unless there’s another girl.” Cassie asks, “It’s not like you guys were having problems when you went on vaca” Shanann replies, “Then it’s def ducking goodbye” Cassie says, “He doesn’t seem the cheating kind, he is dedicated to you guys.” Shanann says, “Ha. His dad also isn’t the coke kind of guy but he did it when Chris was 18 and left for college. He took our pic off his phone and put-up sand dunes. Nothing when he arrived.” Cassie asks, “WTF why would he take you guys pic off…that’s unlike him” Shanann tells her, “He said pic was cool. He doesn’t wear wedding ring Bc it doesn’t fit.' Cassie says, “We don’t wear ours because of that and after an update I did on the phone I never put the pics of us back on till months later.” Shanann says, “But he removed our pic.” Cassie replies, “Yeah now that’s strange. Were you guys ok before you left?” Shanann says, “Yes, perfect.” Cassie says, “I don’t get it” Shanann sends crying emojis and says, “3 kids alone”

August 5, 2018

6:47am Shanann texts Cassie, “Wish you were closer”

9:20am Cassie texts Shanann, “Me too mama…how are you doing today?” Shanann says, “Not good. Drove 3 hours in silence. I told him to find a place when we get back and I’m putting house on market, he said nothing. I said, I wouldn’t change anything. I had the balls to protect our kids. Told him he doesn’t have balls to protect our family and that’s the truth. I need to move out of Colorado. Too expensive to live alone with 3 kids. I’m not moving to NC.” Cassie replies, “OMG and he says nothing!! WTF is wrong with him…he needs to wake up!” Shanann tells Cassie, “Nothing. He just said I love the kids…This is not the man I married. I mentioned I saw his dad texted him and when I texted myself the pictures of the girls from his phone his dad’s message was gone. (deleted) I’m not living in lies. He said nothing.” Cassie replies, “I don’t understand!!! This is so out of character.” Shanann says, “Told him this week 8 years I’ve been putting up with his family treating me like crap.” Cassie adds, “You’re pregnant doing all this alone what are you going to do mama?” Shanann tells her, “Find a place to out too out of state. I have nothing else I can do. Canceled 4D ultrasound and gender reveal party. I’ve lost excitement. I just want to sleep and cry. Worst part is I’m around my family. So, I’m acting like it’s the pregnancy causing me to feel like this. Chris said today, it’s not my fault, yet he blamed me the other night. He’s a complete asshole. And has not care about this pregnancy. I honestly wish I wasn’t pregnant. Not Bc of the child but Bc they don’t deserve this life.” Cassie tells her, “It’s hard enough to be pregnant and on top of that separating!” Shanann says, “I can’t do anything with someone who isn’t talking to me. I’m talking to a wall.” Cassie wonders, “I don’t get why he is acting this way.” Shanann continues, “He tried using my parents as excuse, but we were at beach 3 days alone. I wish you were closer. Housing doesn’t take long to sell but apartment in Colorado cost same as owning. So, I have to figure this out and where I’m going before putting house on market.” Cassie asks her, “Where would you like to live” Shanann tells Cassie, “I don’t even know where to begin besides find a place to live where I have some kind of support. Thank you love. I’m gonna start selling things at the house again when I return. Take the kids out of school to save money.” Cassie says, “I wish he would at least react and try to fight for you.” Shanann says, “There’s nothing. I wish too. But I’m not fight alone. I will fight alone without him.” Cassie replies, “The kids are the ones that will suffer the most about all this…but it’s better than to be in a home that there is no love or fights all the time.” Shanann says, “I don’t even know if I can take kids out of state. I don’t expect him to fight me.” Cassie tells Shanann, “Most states legally no…unless with his consent. I feel for the girls…their world is about to change, the school that they thrive in, their friends…everything!!!” Shanann adds, “That’s why I can’t stop crying.” Cassie replies, “And I don’t get how he is ok with all this. That’s a big change from the guy I’ve met.”

12:28pm Shanann texts Cassie, “Mine too. I’m so sick to my stomach, constipated and exhausted. (She sends a selfie of her in the car with no make-up on)” Cassie replies, “Oh sweetheart, you look exhausted.” Shanann says, “I need a shower.” Cassie says, “Wish I could hug you right now…you have any close friends there you can just relax and hang out with…no kids, just you to decompress?” Shanann tells her, “I’m going to Arizona. Addy.” Cassie replies, “Good” Shanann tells her, “Nicki, I’m close too. She had no idea anything is wrong. (she sends screen shots text with Chris saying he wants the kids to see Maw-Maw) Like how he’s concerned.” Cassie agrees, “I know, just weird all this”

1:22pm Cassie texts Shanann, “Ok I will order mine as well. What did you pick for your headshots?”

3:16pm Shanann texts Chris, “Are you wanting to go to see just Maw Maw tomorrow? Or family too?” Chris replies, “I was hoping both. If not that’s ok too. I wanted to see Maw Maw in the morning, if possible. You wanted the girls to see her too right?” Shanann tells him, If both then that’s fine, but alone. If just Maw Maw, we will go…They saw her twice and they can go again but I’m standing strong with your family. You can use the truck and see both. But I just need to know…I’m not going to be reason you don’t see them. So, if you do, you just go.”

3:28pm Chris texts Shanann, “I know they would love to see Maw Maw one more time. I bet Maw Maw would love to see them too since she remembers them. I don’t want to leave anyone without a car here though either. Should I Have someone pick me up at nursing home so the girls can still see Maw Maw?” Shanann replies, “I’m not going to be where there’s a chance we will run into your family. I’m not kidding Christopher. I’m having a bad experience these last few days with my pregnancy and I’m spotting. I’m not dealing with it…have your parents pick you up when kids go down tonight then and do what you need to…”

3:29pm Shanann texts Cassie, “I don’t remember I think I ordered two” Cassie replies, “I just ordered one for Saturday morning.” Shanann replies, “Perfect. (She sends screen shots of texts convo with Chris). That’s what I texted him in the middle of the night.” Cassie asks, “What did he say?” Shanann says, “Nothing” Cassie asks, “Nothing at all?” Shanann says, “Just that he loves the kids” Cassie asks, “Did he say he loves you too?” Shanann replies, “No. He asked me if kids could see his parents and I said no. I’m standing my ground. They haven’t made contact in 4 weeks. No show toher party nothing said for her birthday.” Cassie says, “It’s shocking that he hasn’t said a word to you about what you said to him. I’m sorry honey. He needs to open up and talk to you about everything. You guys need to clear the air and work on it and then work on the issue with his parents.” Shanann replies, “I’ve been trying to talk to him for 4 days. He hasn’t said anything in return. It’s ok honey. “Cassie asks, “Is that really what you want? Do you think that is what he wants?” Shanann says, “No it’s not but I’m also not going to live like this. I’m not going to be ignored and not loved.” Cassie says, “You’re only going to be home for a few days and then you go to phx. Then you’re both home for a bit and not travel right?” Shanann replies, “Yup”

3:33pm Chris texts Shanann, “I want kids to see Maw Maw. I will make sure there is zero chance anyone will see them.”

4:16pm Cassie texts Shanann, “Mama, what’s Nickole’s husband name?” Shanann replies, “Ken. He’s going to his parents tomorrow.” Cassie asks, “To stay?” Shanann says, “No” Cassie asks, “You staying with kids” Shanann says, “Yup, they will be with me. Standing my ground. They ducked up. Not me. No show at her party, block us on FB, no text for her birthday to me or Chris, nothing in 4 weeks. Put my daughter’s life in danger, teaching other to lie. I’m not caving. I’d be same way if it was my parents.” Cassie agrees with her, “True, I know you wouldn’t expect anything less” Shanann adds, “I haven’t canceled ultrasound yet but not excited and don’t want Chris there. It’s this Wednesday. We were supposed to have gender reveal party next weekend.” Cassie tells her, “You should still have it. Celebrate your baby…it’s not the babies’ fault everything that is happening. I wish I was there I would totally go with you.” Shanann says, “But I’m not happy.” Cassie replies, “I know” Shanann says, “How do I celebrate, I’d just cry” Cassie says, “It’s a lie” Shanann replies, “This is not how I pictured this” Cassie says, “I know” Shanann sends a screen shot of a poem, “Do I text this to Chris?” Cassie says, “Its perfect what it’s saying” Shanann sends a screen shot of a text, “I have no problem with you seeing your family. When your dad asked to see the kids at the beach, you should have said, “No, but I’d love to meet you alone on Monday to discuss how you have treated my family!” Instead of saying you had to talk to me. I need you to stand up for what’s right not by avoiding conflict. By trying to avoid conflict you allowed them to get between us! I will never change how protective I am for our children. They are my life, and I can’t imagine life without them.” Do I send this to him?” Cassie asks her, “What about how you feel about him…do you see your life without him?” Shanann asks Cassie, “What do I say” Cassie encourages her, “What does your heart tell you. Not your head” Shanann says, “I can’t put it into writing.” (She sends a picture of Chris sitting on the couch), “My life”. Cassie asks Shanann, “Do you want him in your life? Do you want to fix things? Most important, do you love him? Can you approve my call in Team Extreme please?” Shanann replies, “Yes” Cassie says, “Thank you” Shanann tells her, “You’re welcome. Chris is a ducking asshole” Cassie asks, “Why, what he said” Shanann tells her, “In middle of verbally talking to him. He thought I was done. He said, I’m gonna go sleep with girls, leaving me to sleep on the ducking couch. My fucking back. I sat up last night and held Celeste Bc of an ear infection. My back and neck are throbbing.” Cassie says, “OMG” Shanann adds, “OMG, I fucking hate him” Cassie says, “WTF” Shanann continues, “Why did you get me pregnant? I though you wanted another baby. What the fuck?” Cassie asks, “Who is this guy? That I recalled you were the one that I didn’t” Shanann says, “Why did you want another baby? I wanted a boy! Why are you married to me? Because we love each other! You can’t look me in the eyes…It’s midnight” Cassie says, “First you can’t just get pregnant and expect which sex the baby is going to be that’s stupid. And if he loves you, he needs to wake up and show you with all the fire in him” Shanann continues, “I told him I don’t know who this person is but the person I left 7 weeks ago would have answered differently. Why are you married to me? Because we love each other! (he said that’s all he can think of to say at the moment). I told him, why I married him and why I’m still married to him. Which took a few paragraphs not a mutual answer. I said you love me Bc I’m the mother of your kids. You’re not in love with me. I told him I think he enjoyed single life too well. And that I think he may realize he prefers to be alone. He’s not in love with me. A person still madly in love can find what to say. He responded; I don’t want to lose the kids! I walked away in tears since I couldn’t take anymore. (She sends screen shots of texts with Chris). If you are done, don’t love me, don’t want to work this out, not happy anymore and only staying Bc of kids. I NEED you to tell me.” Cassie asks, “What he said?” Shanann says, “Nothing, he’s probably sleeping.” Cassie says, “Oh yeah, it’s late there…you need to go sleep too mama” Shanann replies, “I walked away, sent 15 mins later. He’s obviously not in it. He’s not fighting. He’s not in love. He’s checked out. I can’t sleep” Cassie says, “That’s hard…you can love someone and not be in love. It’s a hard situation. You can work on being in love again. That’s what I’ve been doing.”

7:51pm Shanann texts Cassie, “He’s going to his parents tomorrow” Cassie asks, “To do what? Try and work it out?” Shanann says, “Kiss their ass probably” Cassie advises her, “Maybe you guys should talk with someone when you get home? Throwing away what you have together is not ok. My heart aches for you b” Shanann says, “Love you friend. Can’t and won’t fight alone. I need a man that has the balls to protect his family. Even when it comes to your own blood. He’s a totally different person from the guy I’ve known for 8 years. I wouldn’t change a thing. Shit, I was a Saint. I wanted to tell his mom that she’s a narcissist stupid bitch. I just said we were done and never coming back.” Cassie says, “I wish i was there to hug you” Shanann asks, “Friday. You splitting room with me?” Cassie says, “Yes ma’am.”

8:28pm Shanann texts Chris a screen shot of a poem by Isac Kvbvoruno, “Husband stand up for your wife. Protect her from the people close to you. Let you family and friends know that when it come to your wife and marriage, there is a line they cannot cross. If you have to take sides, then always take your wives’ side. From the day you said, “I do”, you wife displaces your parents, friends and siblings. Apart from God, your wife now occupies and assumes the privileged first place of honor in your life. Oftentimes, it requires that you lovingly stand up for your wife in front of your parents, epically our mother. Therefore, what Goe has joined together, let no (mother, father, brother, sister, friend or boss) separate.”

10:24pm Shanann texts Chris, “I don’t know how you feel out of love with me in 5.5 weeks. or if this has been going on for a long time, but you don’t plan another baby if you’re not in love. Kids don’t deserve a broken family…I left you, you couldn’t take your hands off me. You show up and I have to practically ask for a kiss in airport.”

10:33pm Chris calls Nichol K. for 89 minutes

10:34pm Shanann texts Chris, “Being away from you, it’s not the help I missed because I handle that. It was exhausting, but with school that’s not hard. I missed the smell of you, you touching me when I’m cooking, you touching me in bed, you touching me period! I missed holding you and snuggling with you. I missed eating with you, watching TV with you. I missed staring at you, I missed making love with you. I missed everything about you. I couldn’t wait to touch you, hold you, kiss you, make love to you, smell you, laugh with you. I couldn’t wait to celebrate 8 years with you…if you are done, don’t love me, don’t want to work this out, not happy anymore and only staying because of kids, I NEED you to tell me.”

11:00pm Shanann texts Chris, “Would you stay with me if we didn’t have kids?”

11:09pm Shanann texts Chris, “I just don’t get it. You don’t fall out of love in 5 weeks. How can you sleep? Our marriage is crumbling in front of us and you can sleep.”

August 6, 2018

6:20am Shanann texts Chris, “Your only response last night was “I don’t want to lose the dis! You used me to just have a ‘boy!’ Only reason you wanted another kid!?! I can’t handle this and you are ok with it. Why didn’t you just tell me you were done?!!? Why get me pregnant?!”

6:22am Chris texts Shanann, “I’m not just staying because of the kids. They are my light and that will not change. I didn’t fall out of love in 5 weeks, that’s impossible. I don’t want to erase 8 years just like that. I’m not sure what’s in my head. I don’t know if it’s my parents, the third pregnancy, or if I’m just scared or what. I didn’t use you.”

6:23am Shanann texts Chris, “That’s what you said last night…you can’t even say why you’re married to me. That’s a stab in the heart…you didn’t say you didn’t want to lose us, you said you didn’t want to lose the kids.” Chris replies, “I don’t want to lose anyone.” Shanann says, “This has been the worst week of my life! We were supposed to celebrate love and family. But instead hate and whatever you call it. I’m not willing to watch something dangerous happen to one of our kids with your family for you to wake up. They will give you sorry excuses today! I don’t know what to say, I don’t want to come. You don’t see you or how you’re treating me…8 years of ‘love’ and you are treating me horribly. I fell deeper in love with you this summer, you fell out. That’s not love. Love falls deeper in love when apart not out. You don’t love me. Or you have a horrible way of showing it. You haven’t’ fought for me this week. IT’s only the kids.”

8:30am Cassie texts Shanann, “Good morning…I changed the picture in Team Extreme, I think may need approval not sure”

8:33am Shanann texts Cassie, “I’m so dizzy and lightheaded and nauseous” Cassie replies, “Have you drank enough water and eaten?” Shanann says, “Working on it. You staying with me Friday? I think it’s Bc I haven’t (pooped) in weeks.” Cassie replies, “Yes, I’m with you Friday and Saturday honey. Why haven’t you pooped?” Shanann tells her, “Ok. Constipated. You coming early?” Cassie tells her, “I am going to leave early Friday morning to head up. What time do you land again? Are you taking balance?” Shanann sends a screen shot of her flight schedule. “Yes but forgot it a few times. Took 3 last night. I will take uber from airport. Miss you love. Safety first. I’m driving with do not disturb while driving turned on. I’ll see your message when I get where I’m going. (I’m not receiving notifications. If this is urgent, reply ‘urgent’ to send a notification through with your original message.” Cassie replies, “I miss you” Shanann says, “Chris is driving not me” Cassie asks, “Where are you guys headed to” Shanann tells her, “To see his grandma then I’m taking girls back home with me as he goes tohis parents. I’m not going and neither are the kids” Cassie asks, “Is he going to talk to them about the issue and work it out?” Shanann says, “Who knows. You can’t protect someone you’re not in love with anymore. He doesn’t have the balls.” Cassie